![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
Almost the end
Feb. 12th, 2026 11:16 pmI only have one mock exam left. Then it will all be for real.
Today, I had two exams. Afterwards, I lay down on the ground in my teacher's room at lunch. I started to cry, and I don't know why. I wasn't sad.
I've not really felt an emotion all week. Everything is just dull and grey.
Eventually, I started getting heart palpitations. I was almost relieved, because it meant I had a valid reason to ask for help. My friends came quickly after that.
I ended up getting a migraine and being sent home early, but there were only 40 minutes left of the day, so I don't feel guilty about it.
I need help, but I'm so close to half term. Then I can just...be quiet for a while. Maybe I'll research depression more.
I spend my nights lit up by a screen. It makes me feel like I don't exist anymore except for the words I feed into a screen, and I like it.
Maybe I'll write poetry again. If I do then I'll post it on here.
Today, I had two exams. Afterwards, I lay down on the ground in my teacher's room at lunch. I started to cry, and I don't know why. I wasn't sad.
I've not really felt an emotion all week. Everything is just dull and grey.
Eventually, I started getting heart palpitations. I was almost relieved, because it meant I had a valid reason to ask for help. My friends came quickly after that.
I ended up getting a migraine and being sent home early, but there were only 40 minutes left of the day, so I don't feel guilty about it.
I need help, but I'm so close to half term. Then I can just...be quiet for a while. Maybe I'll research depression more.
I spend my nights lit up by a screen. It makes me feel like I don't exist anymore except for the words I feed into a screen, and I like it.
Maybe I'll write poetry again. If I do then I'll post it on here.
